I must have literally listened to this track over 450 times! Enjoy!
---- Spoiler alert : If you're planning on watching BBC Sherlock sometime.
(image source: Some Tumblr blog, so sorry, really tried to find it again for credits and couldn't)
Well, although I did put a spoiler alert, this isn't really a post about the British serie Sherlock. It is about me :)
There shouldn't be a smiley in the previous line, this is a sad post, about death, imagining dying, about falling from a top floor and crashing to the ground and basically dying.
I imagined the fall, many times. They told me that the heart stops on the way down so that you're already dead by the time you hit the ground, it consoled me a little but not much. I still wondered what bones got broken.. was there lots of blood.. was the face smashed.. I never knew, I never saw.
I'd look down from the 11th floor and wonder how it was to fall down from there, was it going to resemble a flight at a certain moment, then I'd take a step back really fast afraid I might jump to know how it feels. They say if you jump in a falling elevator you overcome gravity and you fly for a moment but I'm not keen about experiencing that either. Anyway, you didn't jump, you just fell :S
The resemblance only hit me browsing tumblr and seeing all those gifs of the fall, I felt for Watson really .. 'let me come through please, he's my friend' .. Like John, I asked for the same miracle but it never happened for me.
Anyway, I guess this has been just to say say that if you ever came back I will totally forgive you the grief of the past 6 years, I promise, not a single punch!
أماكن منسية، أفكار مبتورة، أحلام مشوشة أو أضغاث أحلام
عالم تغير و مرآة لا تتعرف على ناظريها
و في مكان ما، مظلم، أنتظر
أي حركة تكسر السكون
و لكنها لا تأتي
و أظل مكاني
أسيرة لضلالاتي و أوهامي
لا أتطلع لشئ سوى أن يكسرني النوم فأتلاشى تماماً